For posterity, i'm recording a few things in this virtual diary as it were. (sidebar: our kids are going to have such different methods of retrieving information about their childhood with all these blogging young parents, eh? what say you?) so anyway, here is a rambling of sort... because i have a feeling my memory will fade much more quickly than i would prefer.
J is three months old. last night she made all these goofy, gurgly grins for her daddy for a good ten minutes or so, while constantly trying to keep his gaze fixed on her and batting her bright eyes at him. suddenly, tears welled up in my eyes, and the last 2.5 months of screaming faded away. I felt a little more at ease, a little less stressed, a lot more in love with her, and suddenly very aware that we have A DAUGHTER. who is also a sister, and a cousin. And she maybe someday may be a wife, possibly a mother, or an aunt.
For the last few months I've thought about this girl in terms of our role as parents, or RM's role as a big, doting brother. and her as a colicy, lactose-intolerant, constipated little babe. and once the crying stopped, and her digestive system started to embrace my dairy-free lifestyle changes, i'm realizing what an amazing and rich ride we are in for the next few years.
4 comments:
I wholeheartedly agree. I am so excited to have girls in my home with me. I know it will be trying at times, but we get to raise the mothers who will raise the next generations!
omigosh! so great. its so crazy when you get wrapped up in things, you don't really think about anything else...especially when it is hard. good for you to step back and really take it all in!
you are such a great mommy!
So happy for you that the nighttime drama has ceased. Just be sure to enjoy the next few months of goofy smiles and letting anyone hold her...before you know it, she'll be talking (and telling you NO!) and will have a pretty strong opinion when it comes to just about everything (including who she prefers to be left with and held by). Can you tell I'm in the separation anxiety phase right now? :-)
Isn't it marvellous how your love actually gets multiplied rather than divided the more kids you have! And isn't it a comfort to know that God only gives you what you can handle; i.e. four, not more GIRLS in our case. Everyone a challenge and a supreme blessing. What would life have been like with mostly boys to raise. In some ways easier maybe? But they are going to LEAVE; not the girls so much. Good post, Dan - enjoyed remembering the good times (which definitely outweighed the bad).
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